Sweetness Alive

you, me, haze,.. everything in between..

"The thing about parties and these places is that.. I don't know," he shrugged for a second and took a sip before continuing. He drank a draft beer that night, not exactly his favorite kind of beer but he drank anyway. It's not a foreign sight for me; him pausing in between his words, getting his thoughts across without looking straight into your eyes until he finally gets to the end of it. "...it's just--what do you seek, really? Say that, you come here with your friends. You drink--a lot. You get drunk. You do stupid s--- which you'll totally regret the next morning but you'll end up doing it again the next week anyway for the mere sake of... being cool?" I laughed a bit at his comment, and shook my head in disbelief. It was weird seeing how not the slightest bit of anger slipped through that very sentence although in my opinion, he was being really, really negative. That's the thing I've always liked about him; the very unique fact that he just smiled about almost anything--even if the thing was hurting him. "I'm not much of a social butterfly as well, you see. I myself enjoy observing people--sitting  here, with you, getting drinks and talking about whatever. But anyway, I object. I see the fun in these parties--the fact that I'm here with a lot of other people, just the mere fact of me being here, I feel like I become more aware of my existence," He immediately just scoffed at my ridiculous response. "What? I'm dead serious--I know that it's weird, but I sort of feel like I'm more alive. Through good music, through dancing, through mingling with people you've never met before, through good drinks. For a couple of hours I feel like I don't have any weight on my shoulders, you know. I feel almost weightless.. Although yes, I do agree that after quite a while of repeating these, sometimes I don't know what to seek anymore. But still, you gotta admit that parties are--at least--quite fun, right?" He pursed his lips, tilted his head to the side, and looked straight into my eyes as if he was saying "No, it's not.." I just laughed and nodded to the beats of ADHD by Kendrick Lamar--which was one of my favorite songs.

Three songs and one glass after, he started talking again. "So.... yeah. Do you think we should, I don't know, get out of here? ...Watch Love, Actually or listen to Stay Awhile instead?" I just shook my head and laughed, oh you. Classic.
 
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Varsity - So Sad, So Sad
The Radio Dept. - I Don't Like It Like This
The Radio Dept. - Pulling Our Weight
Arctic Monkeys - Piledriver Waltz
San Cisco - About You
San Cisco - Hey Did I Do You Wrong?
Craft Spells - Nausea
Craft Spells - Komorebi
The Cure - Just Like Heaven
The Cardigans - For What It's Worth
Binocular - Deep
The Black Skirts - Hollywood