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1. What band has inspired you the most?
- I can say Arctic Monkeys but i'm pretty sure The Drums has inspired me in a lot of ways possible too. It's not just their music that inspires me a lot but it's also how they manage all the fame that they're getting and not letting it in into their heads. They're really down to earth and they seem to have this really great personality.

2:What/who got you into the music you listen to now?
- Movie soundtracks mostly and of course, my brother. And kak Cass also! It all started when I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind like a year ago, and as soon as it finished i rushed off into my laptop and googled the soundtrack. I did the same when i watched 500 days of Summer later that year.

3:Is music a big part of your life?
- You have no idea how big it is. Music is a really really big part of my life; i live in a family where you listen to music like 24/7. No, literally. Mum is an enormous fan of jazz    so basically i guess that affects all of my family members. As far as i could remember, mum blasts Earth, Wind & Fire or George Benson through her jbl speaker almost every night so that explains everything.

I learned to play piano when i was 4 and things just kinda went from there. Like i used to sing at the school's choir (but i don't anymore.) and a lot of other things. Music has always been there for me, sad, happy, whatever. Remember amateur's feeling - porcelain raft from last post? There you go.

4:How many concerts have you been to?
- Let's see uhm, P!ATD, Paramore, Katy Perry. I couldn't watch MGMT and the whitest boy alive and the drums because i'm still underage. :( OH! I went to watch Sondre Lerche last year on a jazz festival. Does that count?

5:What is the favorite merch item you’ve ever purchased?
- Beatles mug! I almost bought their lunchbox but i bought elmo instead. (enter plot twist?)

6:Who is your favorite musician/band?
- easy, Arctic Monkeys. And phoenix! Ugh that band is really really underrated by the way.

7:What song do you listen to when you’re sad?
- Luna by Smashing Pumpkins (acoustic version). This song has some kind of a personal memory for me, so it never fails to make me cry. Or maybe stuck in the puzzle by Alex Turner because it's a great song.

DON'T JUDGE but i listened to justin bieber's be alright yesterday and it hit me. (Only God can judge me.)

8:What song do you listen to when you’re mad?
- Any song by the arctic monkeys to be honest. It has some weird sense that could soothe me.

9:What song do you listen to when you’re pissed off?
- Family by The Cast of Cheers. I can't explain why, because the lyrics don't really match up with the situation but if you listen to the song you'll get it.

10:Have you ever moshed?
- No but i've seen one live on paramore's concert last year.

11:CD’s or iTunes?
- Vinyls. iTunes!

12:What is your favorite album? Why?
- My favorite album... i can't choose between Portamento by The Drums or Parachutes by Coldplay Or In Rainbows by Radiohead.

I kinda go with Portamento, though. It still has a bit of similarity from their first self-titled album, but portamento is just amazing. Jonny has this smiths-like tune on Money and all of the songs are ridiculously catchy, somehow. The lyrics are insanely bitter but i can relate to it because it's written by a teen's perspective.

13:Who is the funniest band/band member you know?
- Louis Tomlinson from One Direction. Funniest band? The Lonely Island......haha.

14:What band has the best lyrics?
- COLDPLAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!! And i like best coast as well. But she & him has this really cute lyrics that makes me want to cuddle in a bundle of joy and puke rainbows.

15:How has music helped you?

- Music has helped me in a lot of ways. For example, last year it helped me through the toughest moment, and just by listening to it or playing it on an instrument made me feel better--which is weird.

July // Julio

Lana Del Rey - National Anthem
Cheryl Cole - Ghetto Baby
The Temper Trap - Trembling Hands
Justice - D.A.N.C.E
Porcelain Raft - Amateur's Feeling
Camera Obscura - James
The Black Keys - Howlin' For You
Radio Spectacular!!! - You Light Me Up
Swimming Lessons - Beat, Pound My Chest
Braids - Lemonade

things to do whilst past the point of no return

i have no idea why i used that sentence as a title. but it sounded cool so.. yeah.

ANYWAY!

How are ya people? Is you okay? Is you? ...See what i did there? I added a bit of a glozell here and there but mostly, how are you feeling? I'm on my school holiday so i guess i'm good...? At least i think i am.

First things first, i want to say sorry for abandoning this blog for quite a while now. (isn't it? a month? i don't know exactly.) Therefore, i am here, ready to type all the magical words to bring you to the joyous world of the bloggity blog blog blog. Not really.

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So.. July, huh? 6 down, 6 to go. And i mean, just like that, 2012 is half over? It seems like yesterday it was just January though. One thing i surely know now is that time does fly fast. And still i haven't done something meaningful yet until this very moment. About 3 months ago i decided to do something quirky/witty/you name it, so i can look back and see how weird memorable it was but ..words will be just words, till you bring them to life. *le sigh* (just for the record, i DID quote one direction.... don't judge.)

I remember having a conversation about this at a public bathroom, about a month ago from now. It was with my best friend Andari, maybe i've mentioned her name or maybe not but background info on her : loveliest lady ever.

Back to the bathroom stall, with the mixed feelings of absurdity, nervousness, and the cold feet I’ve just experienced caused by one damn report card, it’s her turn to feel the same way.

I’ve known her for 2 years now and I can say that she’s one of the toughest human being I’ve ever met in my life. And it was the very first time that I could see her like that. Then there I was, then-overhappy-sophomore-girl, sitting on the bathroom floor, encouraging her best friend so she could threw up. Which was useless anyway, because she hadn’t eaten anything from the previous night and also it’s not quite picturesque if you might ask, because somehow it's considered as an awkward situation.

“You can’t just force yourself to puke like that. I mean, if you wanna puke, you will.”, I said to her half-heartedly because I honestly was really starving at the time. I heard her mumble(d) something like ‘mm-hmm’ or ‘yea’, I couldn’t hear her clearly through the plastic doors, until she decided to flung it open and reveal her o-face, -- you know that face someone would gladly pull after their hangover starts kicking in? I like to call it the o-face. and just for the record, she already put that o-face before she attempted to puke whatsoever so, it's o face TOPS o face.

 “But if I puke randomly, it’ll be nasty and,” blah blah blah.  I stopped listening to her after a few pros and cons about whether she should eat and then threw up (which is HELLO. IT’S GOOD FOOD BRO.) or sit around and wait until the right time..to puke, we kinda went for the latter until le awkward silence filled the air and I finally said something good. 

You know it’s kind of surprising, reminiscing the fact that I’m not the visual/audio-first-kind-of-person so, kudos to self. “You know we only got 1 year left until we go our separate ways.” “Yeah, I know.” “Time flies quite fast.”

It felt like yesterday i was just a clueless little freshman. Freshman year was the greatest year though, i remember everything really clearly. It was so much fun compared to my sophomore year. My second year was supposed to be the 'fun' year but it ended up being a blur.

Back to my convo with Andari, i thought, "Well that was deep,". Other than that, i thought she's right. Time really does fly fast. I've said that a gazillion times but i didn't really mean it, until that very moment. I thought, What the hell, i've wasted so many days doing stupid and reckless things. You know, YOLO. I don't know YOLO seems to be my excuse to everything lately.

Also, i didn't realize how i only got 12 months left to spare. Well damn, 6 actually. 6 months left and then bam! f-tons of exams are ready to bite you right in the arse. Not literally, because that'd be disgusting.

{To sum things up, i don't know where i'm going after this whole senior sphere. Of course, my parents and my brother planted ideas of which school i am going to take after this but I also have different plans, here and there. So the point is : i don't know which path to take. Maybe 'know' is not the right word, maybe the right word is, 'ready'.}

I know i always say how i wanted to leave school immediately and i hated to do assignments etc. but at the end of the day, i know i'm not ready yet. Not yet ready to leave things behind, to face a new start. 

Andari's quick standing up movement made me stop all the 'deep-thoughts' that i was (over-)thinking. And with that, i got out from the bathroom and headed outside.

And so we sat in front of the teacher's rooms. I looked across the balcony and i found that some people were crying. But either way, some others were just happy that they finally passed their grades. The mixed feelings confused me in some ways but I ignored the sight, yet i decided to look up front. As far as i can remember, it was just clouds and clouds, and clouds. I stared down--blankly at the empty classrooms and I finally got to the stage when i knew that things are going to end; like i was sort of standing close to the edge of a building and things are ready to stop there but you miraculously hope that it'd turn 180 degrees-- which is impossible.

I felt sour. I wasn't sad, but i wasn't happy either. I felt sour. I could feel it. I wanted to do something about it but it all seemed like an act of waste or helplessness may be the word they could nail to the situation.

I remember listening to amateur's feeling by porcelain raft all the way home, and still, i kept thinking about it. All the fun that i've had years before, and how i only got 1 year-- freaking 1 year left! I put my ipod on shuffle and that new song by maroon 5 i just purchased yesterday kicked in. The lyrics caught my attention, "you say it's too late to make it, but is it too late to try?". It clicked.

I put it on repeat and what felt like the seventieth time that day, i smiled sheepishly. Adam levine's voice that rang through my earphone felt like it came from nowhere, and echoed blatantly through the solid room.

I finally knew that it's not too late to turn things over, and everything isn't moving too fast, i'm just too stupid to realize that i didn't cherish them/it in the first place. Maybe time doesn't fly too fast, maybe it's just us and things that came too early.