still

hffft.

did you ever feel like you're going into something really great but when you already passed it halfway, you feel like, something's up and it's bringing you down? that's what i'm feeling right now. i just want to move out, grow a beard & join a circus. errr (no i'm kidding about the circus thingy haa.) but seriously i can't do this thing i mean i know i haven't done it yetttt but it's really hard for me. well i keep on thinking about this thing, i mean what am i doing? i'm doing this for my own good but i just can't stop now, in the middle of everything like this.

but i decided to keep on going. just like what my friend said, "like a game, you've reached the highest level and now you want to start over from the 1st level? aww come on man, you know you can do better than being over-sappy, underrated-ly melodramatic like this."

you guys might think that i'm such a hypocrite cause i've written one thing like this before and i've said "regret's just a waste of time" hahaha. yes, it does. regret, looking back, ....those things surely don't help you to move on, they made you stuck there, with your mistakes.

something better is coming up, i believe that. time heals. time does wonderful things. other people have better things to do, and i do too. <3