"the wheel" kind-of-thing

hi. sorry for the late update(s,i've been busy dealing with some problems, --school to be exact.

so yesterday, i just received my report card (midterms result) and....my grades dropped. drastically. (not really, but still, it's a bad thing!)

for the past 8 years of school, i've never became "the second". not to be cocky, but it's true. i've always been the best, the-too-good-to-be-true kind of student. and now....it's just, shocking. TOO shocking.
the worse thing is that i don't even know where i went wrong. weird. i know

last night, i tried to figure out "where did i go wrong?". and after a whole lot of thinking, still, i have no clue. at all. "maybe it's just bad luck, or whatever, you still have a chance to win" said archie to me while i was being sappy and things. but then he said again,
"you know, maybe it's good for you, you could take this as a -good- lesson. could you try to be a wee bit more positive?" i sighed. but after all i realized it was right. he was right.

this is a phase where i needed to be wrong, where i needed to lose. because, life is like a wheel. you can't always be on "the top", you know? well i guess i just have to know what it feels like; to be a loser. if i'm too-good-never-been-losing-before, i will be a total cocky person, a pathetic one. a very pathetic one. and i won't be matured and grow up.

.....or i could just.. whine, moan, brag and get used to it --to be a loser hahaaha just kidding.

so yeah. wish me luck folks :)