thanks.

MOM + DAD + BROTHER
thanks dear mom, for your advices, and your helps after all this time.
thanks dear dad, for all your kindness and EVERYTHING (:
thanks dear bro, for your jokes, and other silly things that we've shared.

LAPTOP
thanks my laptop, i've been sharing all my everything with you. my stories, my musics, my diary, my pics, EVERYTHING.

AURORA
thanks my little kiddie bear, we've been through everything together for 9 years of my life.

FRIENDS
thanks my moodboosters, you guys always cheer me up, thanks for helping me out at school , and all our stupid moments which was SUPER memorable, especially my class #nacools.

ALDITSA SADEGA
thanks my super duper role model. you made me learn about how tough life is, and i learned from you that life goes on.

BLOG
thanks my blog. we've been sharing all stories, and all of my favorite things. thanks to you cause, you're the "be-there" pal.

sleep too much; insomnia.

so, i'll have a FINAL exam , starting tomorrow.

looks like i have to wake up right away.
well, actually i SLEPT too much.

or if i didn't sleep too much, my brain was running out of control.
did you ever feel like, your brain received too much something so you couldn't think of anything? geez, am i the only one in the world who feel that?

what i need to do : focus.

it's really hard for me to focus on something, i didn't understand why.
i think it's because my swinging moods, unpredictable feelings, and sometimes i could get really super duper lost, it made me hard to make up my mind. and still,
what i HAVE to do is

wake up.

thoughts.

some of you , asked the reason that i deleted some posts and changed every single/little thing in this blog.

it's all because, i changed my way of thinking.
previously, i wasn't really serious about everything and i always underestimated anything, without really thinking of the consequence, or we could say , my way of thinking was absurd, random.

and now, as you know, i changed. my absurd way of thinking suddenly disappeared. i thought that, if i keep on thinking absurd-ly, when will i get mature? or will i be mature? and so, i began to think logic, well perhaps, a little mature/different than i used to be.

my deleted posts? yeah, i DELETED some.
i learned something that, my posts weren't really important. even though it took me months to thought about this thing.

i may lost some stories, number of posts, pictures or something, but i still have them in my memories. and also, after i thought about it many many times, i realized that i better keep it to myself. even though posts here, means everything but i can always post again and again and again right?

at first, i was afraid that in the future i'll be regretting this. i already said in my former post; "time machine/mesin waktu" that regretting's just a waste of time and it just brings back all the sadness.

but i just took all the risks, i already promise myself NOT to regret things in the past, but to LEARN, learn to LIVE IN THE MOMENT, and made my past as an experience.

Letters to Juliet (2010)

(background song: someday we'll know - mandy moore)

and so, i watched "letters to juliet" just a week ago. i'm so terribly late, right? haha.
but hey, i didn't want to talk about how late i was, but i wanted to talk about the film. yeah we could say that..haha

in the middle of the film, amanda seyfried's character said this :

"What' and ‘if’ two words as nonthreatening as words come. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: ‘What if?' "

what if, they didn't want to be my friends anymore? what if, i didn't make it? what if, i couldn't be what they want me to be? what if, i wasn't good enough at school? what if, i didn't make them proud? and other what-if(s).

then i stopped a while and thought about it,

and i realized that, this whole time i was that girl, the "i-don't-have-any-confidence" girl.

i was just wondering "what if" " what if" ,while any of them didn't really happen.

and i realized again, that wondering "what if" the whole time , was just a waste of time.

what will really happen is , if you thought about those "what-if(s)" the whole time, IT WILL really HAPPEN. cause, indirectly that's ,what you EXPECTED things to be.

and so, i changed. even i was afraid that maybe i was still that kind of person. and i was just hoping that i AM not. :)

but it was a trick.

"Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle."

"So one day, he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out -_-"

"You can't hold it in your hand
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it,"

"Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic."

Brick by Boring Brick - Paramore

i'm okay, trust me.

you like d&d, audrey hepburn, fangoria, harry houdini and croquet. you can't swim, you can't dance AND you don't know karate. face it. you'll never gonna make it.

"but i don't wanna make it."

Feel The Romance. My Brutal Romance. My Beautiful Romance. My Miserable Romance. My X-Rated Romance. My Harlequin Romance. My Innocent Romance. My Selfish Romance. My Pathetic Romance. My Childish Romance. My Watercooler Romance. My Chemical Romance :)

--mcr ; i'm not okay.

quote of the day

"if it's not like the movies... that's the way it should be" - Katy Perry

hi everyone!

Hi there,

Thanks for clicking this site, for taking your time to read my blog and of course if you're reading these words, it means that you want to know me a little further.

For a starter, this is how I look like in real life :

So, my name is Marsha. I am pretty much living an ordinary life, so ordinary that it's not even funny. I have only one sibling and that makes me the maknae of my family. (Google it, it's a Korean word.) I'd describe myself as witty, quiet, at times smug, and also narcissistic. The whole sentence makes me sound like I'm a very snobby person hahaha but it's quite true.

I have a very high interest in music, books and travelling. My favorite bands are the Arctic Monkeys, She & Him, Kings of Convenience, etc. Although I do like indie music soooo much, I also find myself drooling over K-Pop. (Not a guilty pleasure, I'm proud! Hahaha) It's a very rare combination, I know.
I started to read books when I was 8. My parents used to drove me to Periplus and picked books for me to read. I remember very clearly about Mom giving me The Famous Five and Tin Tin. From there, my interest in books grow until now.
I also like to travel (if I have enough cash...), because I simply enjoy learning and experiencing new things.

The reason I started this blog was because I had troubles interacting with people in real life. It's not as bad as it sounds, but I indeed have low social skills. Once I was in a large group of friends, but still I'm only close to one or two of them. Truth is, not everyone knows this. People who don't know me that well think or should I say, "label" me as an outroverted person. I'm a reserved person, I find it hard to get along with new people, let alone be close to them. I keep things to myself or whenever I feel like I should talk about it, I write about it instead. So yeah, I started to write things since I was little and I'm still doing it now. Writing helps me to sort my problems out strangely somehow, and through this blog, it helps me to express my thoughts, ideas and such that was once such a hard thing to do.

I thank you so much for taking the time to read my stories, even if it's boring or dumb or dull, but still , you sacrifice your time to read about something that I wrote. Ha! Once again, thanks to you and enjoy my blog.

maybe?

wah kayaknya bakalan jarang ngepost nih gue
haahha
gue udah jarang banget buka laptop -_-
OIYA
trekbol bb gue nih aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
tolong dong siapa gitu yang bisa benerin trekbol gua !! huhuh
sangat dibutuhkan haha :))

okeeeeee gada yang spesial hari ini haha
gua bosen
gua ngantuk
hhaha cacat bet ni post

biar ga makin cacat ato cacatnya ga berkelanjutan
mari kita akhiri dengan doa (loh) haha

okeoke dadaaaaaaaah
:*

ily

xx

NOVEMBER FOOL'S DAY

okay it’s just awkward hahaha

well.. you guys know ‘april's fool’ right?

TODAY ,2 of my best friends at my class ,judith and sarah LIED to me

(why am i always be the victim of their crime-_-)

about something, and that totally made me down. hahahahaha still laughing right now at my stupidity hahaha :)))))

and they called it.. ‘november mop’ or in english ’ NOVEMBER FOOL’ HAHA :))

if ‘april's fool’ is just 1 day, ‘november fool’ is.. THE WHOLE MONTH!

so we ( sarah judith and me, or WILL maybe : kesul brian ditto jl tasya itin salim dellla and also maybe OTHER fulvous-ians.) are going to lie TO innocent people at our class, maybe our teacher too :P:P:P

and then if they believe.. we will SCREAM OUT LOUD :
“PUNKD ! NOVEMBER MOP!” gotcha, baby.

and then the BEST LIAR (like she/he told many many lies this month) and the MOST truth-able LIAR got a present at the end of the month!

pretty exciting huh?

GO Fulvousssss ! :DDD