a postcard to 15:10:18

dear that-peculiar-guy,

first of all, i don't even know why i'm writing this letter to you. i might as well just talk to you straight up because this ain't a nicholas sparks movie whatsoever. But i'm trying to be classy here and write you a letter. Not technically but, still.

since tomorrow is tuesday, (but for you it's monday because we live > 7278 miles from each other, so yeah) and tuesday is my favorite day of the week, which for your additional info i name it as sexy tuesday, and i have nothing to do, (which is a lie because i have a shizload of things i gotta do before saturday) i decided to write you a letter. Even though you might not read it because i haven't built the courage to give this to you yet, but i guess if you're reading this right now and haven't thrown this to the trash can.. well, um hi.

how are you anyway? i hope you're good because if you're not ..that would be really really awkward. Well i'm good, in case you're wondering whether i'm on drugs or not, because normally i wouldn't send letters like these to people; 1) Because i don't usually take interest on writing cheesy things and expect people to read AND like them, and 2) I have other things to do like, lay around and do nothing with my life or just simply circulating oxygen to co2.

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(background song: sondre lerche - stupid memory)

Today, something really strange just happened to me. You know that moment when you feel like a song brings you to a certain memory and all you want is to go back and change everything?

I felt that way and it just stung me right in the brain. It's like when you were half way to sleep and you had that crazy feeling of falling and then sudden-realization hits you and you were all dumb-founded. Needless to say, i was silent for a minute or two, trying to bring back my mind into normal and stare into my iPod.

Smith Westerns - Weekend

It brought me to the day when i first acknowledged your existence. I remember when i first knew this song, i actually thought that you wouldn't know it. But then i figured out that you even made a massive shout out to this band and from there, i began to take interest in you.

To be honest, i was scared to meet someone like you at first. i was scared to even know you at all. I was scared that my idea of perfection is actually real, i was scared that someone who i always previously dreamt of, who only lived on my imagination, is actually presented in you.

I began to learn about you a bit more. I learnt that we both like arctic monkeys so much, we hate sports so much, we like the horrors so much and many other things.

Another memory passes me by and it brought me to the day when you put phoenix's record on.

Phoenix - Consolation Prizes

I lay my head on the table and start humming to the beat of it. I remember how you've been loop the looping around my brain and messed it up with that stupid raven hair that looks like a hipster hair-cut. Ugh that stupid overrated headphone you clung on your neck. Ugh that stupid topman t-shirts.

Cut off your hair yeah that's it! If you look like that i swear i'm gonna love you more.
I thought about this for a long time, never had the chance to try and make it better, my heart is waiting for a new you.


-

I like the way you do cheeky stuffs and abnormal stuffs that sometimes it made me think: 'how can i fell for this?', and the way you're so modest that even people who put up nasty comments on your social networking sites, you still compliment them-- which is the exact opposite of me. Your sense of humour is a+. You always send me awful on the chuckles, and even the crappiest jokes it could turn me on and i'd still laugh at it. You've got good taste in music. There are no words to describe how good your taste in music is like.

You taught me a lot of things, besides cooking and shiz like that. How you dare to be really different from the others and do things like a badass dude, (because you're a dude. wait am i ruining the moment again? yes? sorry.) how you don't care about what people say and not afraid of risks.

Well after all those words i've typed and made my fingers really crampy,

If it puts an end to all this nonsense blabbering, i just want to check in, cause fyi sir : you wander in my mind 24/7. Alongside alex turner. and pretty flowers. Anyway, i want to say that you're a wonderful human being, and,

 don't let anyone stand in your way.

Yours truly,


m

I'm gonna love you more

Phoenix - Consolation Prizes










It started all in early september
When my godgiven little became a lot older 
Goodbyes seal my broken heart 
Hold on to your teardrops, you got a long way to go

Did you get older doing nothing today?
Don't you wanna stop complaining?
If one is easy then hard is two
Noone knows where you're heading to
Once my private collection, always betting on you

No consolation prizes
Spit out your lies & chewing gum
Cut off your hair yeah that's it!
If you look like that I swear I'm gonna love you more

I thought about this for a long time
Never had the chance to try and make it better 
My heart is waiting for a new you 
And there's no other option on the schedule

Love like ours should never die with years 
Once you start you can't ever go backwards 
Cause if dark is one then bright is two 
Noone knows where we're heading to 
No matter what it takes, never give up on you

I want you to change it all
I am gonna make it better

No consolation prizes
Spit out your lies & chewing gum
Cut off your hair yeah that's it!
If you look like that I swear I'm gonna love you more

No consolation prizes
Spit out your lies & chewing gum
Cut off your hair yeah that's it!
If you look like that I swear I'm gonna love you more

valentine and other cheesy stuffs

(k i know im no good at writing titles. enough said)

hi pee-ple, sorry for the previous post, yes yes it's a little bit unimportant but ye that's just me. ignore them if you want to, i do. hehe :D

anyway since today is tuesday valentine's day and everyone is talking slash posting special things about 'em i guess i'll give it a go too. i'm not usually a mainstreamer but ...idk it's different this time. (?)

well my valentine's day went worse than expected. not really, but if i compare this year's valentine with the others i guess this year is the worst. not worst-"worst" just, nothing really happened today. not that i expected massive crazy things to happen but that's alright though.

speaking of valentine, i'm still a part of the forever alone team. well i guess it's pretty weird to say that i kinda like or enjoy being like this. despite my friends being a total douche above everything that refers to forever alone, jk haha. things are pretty rocking and i don't wanna be too rushy-- i mean just let things flow, you know? (that rhymes!). i tend to be a little bit serious at stuffs like this and the thing is that, i want to learn to love myself before i start to love other people. it's as simple as that.

people may see this and say that all of the above is bullsh*t. but i'm serious, how could you love other people if you don't love yourself? i don't want to be in an unsteady relationship and brags about it all the time yo, i think it's better when you already know that you really are ready about the risks and stuffs like that. well for me it's a pretty big step because i'm a serious person. to those of you who don't-really-feel-like-dating-but-you-date-anyway, well let's just say why do you spend your time on something that you don't even have a clue about what you're doing?

at the end of the day time will do great things and the best thing you can do is learn while waiting for the time to come.

i feel like a king

it's mainstream, but hergh.

▼

even though your socks are higher than your hi-tops,
even though you wear socks and sandals together,
even though you take close-up photos of yourself,
you do wicked lip syncs XD
sings medley to "o holy night" and the meekash shuffle,
likes cheese so much your phone is yellow,
you're so much taller than me,
and you like bieber so much it gives you inspiration to your daily style,


i'd still adore you.

you're like amazingly wizard in everything.
with your shy and quirky style,
with the italian bread toasted ham and the subway thingy you love so much,
with your lakers hat you wear like everyday,
with your way of playing basketball,
and those nerdy braces.
and your g-shock watches.
and your vanilla chocs ice cream.
and your iphone 4s.

i will follow you into the dark

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
'cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the No's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

♥

smashing pumpkins - luna (acoustic version : best)


What moonsongs
Do you sing your babies?
What sunshine do you bring?

Who belongs
Who decides who's crazy
Who rights wrongs where others cling?

I'll sing for you
If you want me to
I'll give to you
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break

I go along
Just because I'm lazy
I go along to be with you

And those moonsongs
That you sing your babies
Will be the songs to see you through

I'll hear your song
If you want me to
I'll sing along
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break

I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
With you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
I'm
I'm so in love
I'm in love with you

you.

okay so this is going to be a really really cheesy post but i'm going to write about it anyway.


so here it goes.

i.............love you.

:)

last night, last night.

"....Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember
Always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
And the time on the clock,"

"I've been waiting for (--this moment) you all of my life."
For so long I thought I was asylum bound,
But just seeing you makes me think twice.
And being with you here makes me sane.
I fear I'll go crazy if you leave (my side.)

You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,"

the day i met you

24 april 2011

this could be (probably..) the best day of my entire life. I can't stop smiling.
It's the day i met you two. This is the day i've been waiting on so long.
i can't even show how happy i am right now!

Yes, i've finally met 2 human-being that i can only admire this whole year.
Thanks ,God. :*
thanks you two, i really really truly in love with you guys. :*

my current obsession.

hello and goodbye

sometimes in life

i wish i had a reset button,
rewind,
Slow mo,
fast forward,
pause,
stop,
off,

and delete button.

why?

because,
rewind , so i didn't make that mistake, that crucial mistake.
Go back to that time, to the dark ages.

Slow motion, to those kisses your lovers might gave

fast forward, to pass those bad memories, that we have to pass but we didn't want to . right?

pause, to enjoy the time without even mentioned or thought about the ticking-clock.

off, to be nothing.

and delete, somebody, some memories, or some feelings.

cancer

mychemicalromance .
***

Turn away,
If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors,
My sisters and my brothers, still,
I will not kiss you,
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

Now turn away,
'Cause I'm awful just to see
'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,
Oh, my agony,
Know that I will never marry,
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo
But counting down the days to go

It just ain't living
And I just hope you know

That if you say,
Goodbye today,
I'd ask you to be true.

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you