a postcard to 15:10:18

dear that-peculiar-guy,

first of all, i don't even know why i'm writing this letter to you. i might as well just talk to you straight up because this ain't a nicholas sparks movie whatsoever. But i'm trying to be classy here and write you a letter. Not technically but, still.

since tomorrow is tuesday, (but for you it's monday because we live > 7278 miles from each other, so yeah) and tuesday is my favorite day of the week, which for your additional info i name it as sexy tuesday, and i have nothing to do, (which is a lie because i have a shizload of things i gotta do before saturday) i decided to write you a letter. Even though you might not read it because i haven't built the courage to give this to you yet, but i guess if you're reading this right now and haven't thrown this to the trash can.. well, um hi.

how are you anyway? i hope you're good because if you're not ..that would be really really awkward. Well i'm good, in case you're wondering whether i'm on drugs or not, because normally i wouldn't send letters like these to people; 1) Because i don't usually take interest on writing cheesy things and expect people to read AND like them, and 2) I have other things to do like, lay around and do nothing with my life or just simply circulating oxygen to co2.

#
(background song: sondre lerche - stupid memory)

Today, something really strange just happened to me. You know that moment when you feel like a song brings you to a certain memory and all you want is to go back and change everything?

I felt that way and it just stung me right in the brain. It's like when you were half way to sleep and you had that crazy feeling of falling and then sudden-realization hits you and you were all dumb-founded. Needless to say, i was silent for a minute or two, trying to bring back my mind into normal and stare into my iPod.

Smith Westerns - Weekend

It brought me to the day when i first acknowledged your existence. I remember when i first knew this song, i actually thought that you wouldn't know it. But then i figured out that you even made a massive shout out to this band and from there, i began to take interest in you.

To be honest, i was scared to meet someone like you at first. i was scared to even know you at all. I was scared that my idea of perfection is actually real, i was scared that someone who i always previously dreamt of, who only lived on my imagination, is actually presented in you.

I began to learn about you a bit more. I learnt that we both like arctic monkeys so much, we hate sports so much, we like the horrors so much and many other things.

Another memory passes me by and it brought me to the day when you put phoenix's record on.

Phoenix - Consolation Prizes

I lay my head on the table and start humming to the beat of it. I remember how you've been loop the looping around my brain and messed it up with that stupid raven hair that looks like a hipster hair-cut. Ugh that stupid overrated headphone you clung on your neck. Ugh that stupid topman t-shirts.

Cut off your hair yeah that's it! If you look like that i swear i'm gonna love you more.
I thought about this for a long time, never had the chance to try and make it better, my heart is waiting for a new you.


-

I like the way you do cheeky stuffs and abnormal stuffs that sometimes it made me think: 'how can i fell for this?', and the way you're so modest that even people who put up nasty comments on your social networking sites, you still compliment them-- which is the exact opposite of me. Your sense of humour is a+. You always send me awful on the chuckles, and even the crappiest jokes it could turn me on and i'd still laugh at it. You've got good taste in music. There are no words to describe how good your taste in music is like.

You taught me a lot of things, besides cooking and shiz like that. How you dare to be really different from the others and do things like a badass dude, (because you're a dude. wait am i ruining the moment again? yes? sorry.) how you don't care about what people say and not afraid of risks.

Well after all those words i've typed and made my fingers really crampy,

If it puts an end to all this nonsense blabbering, i just want to check in, cause fyi sir : you wander in my mind 24/7. Alongside alex turner. and pretty flowers. Anyway, i want to say that you're a wonderful human being, and,

 don't let anyone stand in your way.

Yours truly,


m

May // Mayo

The Vaccines - Family Friend
Arctic Monkeys - Piledriver Waltz
The Joy Formidable - Cradle
Crystal Castles - Intimate
Seapony - Dreaming
T-Rex - Teenage Dream
Bon Iver - Holocene
Rosi Golan - C'est L'amour
The Cardigans - For What Its Worth
Bag Raiders - Shooting Stars

Bonus : Arctic Monkeys - 505. Bringing it back because yolo.

valentine and other cheesy stuffs

(k i know im no good at writing titles. enough said)

hi pee-ple, sorry for the previous post, yes yes it's a little bit unimportant but ye that's just me. ignore them if you want to, i do. hehe :D

anyway since today is tuesday valentine's day and everyone is talking slash posting special things about 'em i guess i'll give it a go too. i'm not usually a mainstreamer but ...idk it's different this time. (?)

well my valentine's day went worse than expected. not really, but if i compare this year's valentine with the others i guess this year is the worst. not worst-"worst" just, nothing really happened today. not that i expected massive crazy things to happen but that's alright though.

speaking of valentine, i'm still a part of the forever alone team. well i guess it's pretty weird to say that i kinda like or enjoy being like this. despite my friends being a total douche above everything that refers to forever alone, jk haha. things are pretty rocking and i don't wanna be too rushy-- i mean just let things flow, you know? (that rhymes!). i tend to be a little bit serious at stuffs like this and the thing is that, i want to learn to love myself before i start to love other people. it's as simple as that.

people may see this and say that all of the above is bullsh*t. but i'm serious, how could you love other people if you don't love yourself? i don't want to be in an unsteady relationship and brags about it all the time yo, i think it's better when you already know that you really are ready about the risks and stuffs like that. well for me it's a pretty big step because i'm a serious person. to those of you who don't-really-feel-like-dating-but-you-date-anyway, well let's just say why do you spend your time on something that you don't even have a clue about what you're doing?

at the end of the day time will do great things and the best thing you can do is learn while waiting for the time to come.

oh, there's nothing like it

the drums - how it ended

Those days when I would sit around with you
Oh, there's nothing like it
And even when my heart was black and blue
Oh, there's nothing like it
And everything before and after you
Oh, it doesn't cut it

So do you remember the old times
Those were the only times
The only times
I don't know how it ended
I don't know where you ran to
I'll always be right here
I don't know how it ended
I don't know where you ran to
I'll always be right here
You never have to say that you were wrong
I know I'd do it all again
Even if it was wrong
And I could write a thousand more
Songs about you
Transcribed by
Before this one's done
The next one's begun

So do you remember the old times
Those were the only times
The only times
I don't know how it ended
I don't know where you ran to
I'll always be right here
I don't know how it ended
I don't know where you ran to
I'll always be right here

How will this end
And when will my life begin
Again, again, again, again

So do you remember the old times
Those were the only times
The only times
I don't know how it ended
I don't know where you ran to
I'll always be right here
I don't know how it ended
I don't know where you ran to
I'll always be right here

letter (1)

i'm writing this while listening to mango tree by angus&julia stones, so i suggest you guys could put the record on too (:

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Hi, you.

Since writing a letter is the safest and -yes, it's the only way i could communicate with/to you, so... yeah. i decided to write (you) one.

well, how are things going?

Umm, i think that sentence doesn't seem to be a nice greeting and makes things awkward yet cricky instead, but i do really want to know.

i hope things turn out fine or "just okay" or "yeah it's good" because i'm expecting you to ask me back. Well that sounds shallow but mine's pretty rocking by the way.

So.. have you sorted things out yet? If it's a "yea kinda", kudos to you. If it's a "nope, still finding my way" i wish you the best of luck and without sounding like a wuzz fuzz: i order you to move your 4$$ and figure things out, pronto.

have you found your desiderata of happiness? or your very own pursuit of happiness? if it's a "Yes, i'm loving my life like awh-some" again, kudos to you. if it's a "still trying here" well you better get going cause life goes on and time flies fast. Hurry up before time catches you.

are you still puzzled with life? if it's a "no, i'm not a fool anymore" that's...great. if it's a "yeah, life's still a blur" i'm begging you to try. Yes, life's a very hard thing to solve yet it's a very ridiculous mystery. and yes, you may not find the answer but, trust me, at the end of the day, you'd feel great about yourself because you'll know that you tried and after that moment, you'll know what life is and things will work out the way you expected them to be.

uhm, i was just wondering, are you still making the same mistakes like i do now? If it's a "nope." well that's just okay. just okay. if it's a "to be honest, yes. i still make mistakes like i did back then" this time, i'm going to act cool and for your surprise... i'm going to give you an applause.

well i might sound like i'm crazy or something but yes, that's what i'm going to do. i gotta say that i kinda admire you for still making those silly stupid mistakes. Why? i know you're a great person (haha) and well i guess everybody know that (ahahahahahahaha) and now you're pissed because i typed hahahaha so much. okay back to the topic.

you know that time when you feel like "i'm done with this. i'm so sick with all of these things." and blablabla you feel like, you're going to do 'something' good about your life? when that time comes, you'll no longer be able to make those same mistakes. because you've learned what's wrong and what's right before. i know it's not as simple as that.. i know those times when you feel low about yourself, got stuck somewhere chill, and missed some great points about life, but as i said before, you could make a learning out of it.

you could now say thanks to those mistakes you've made.

in the end,
I don't know where you are now, and what do you do now and i don't know whether if maybe you're still listening to incubus and stuffs (but that's just you), or just lay around and reading this right now..

but i'd still wish you the best of luck.

sincerely,

the coolest person you'll ever meet

heaven knows im miserable now

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
But heaven knows I'm miserable now

I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now


In my life
Why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die ?


Two lovers entwined pass me by
And heaven knows I'm miserable now


I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now


In my life
Oh, why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die ?


What she asked of me at the end of the day
Caligula would have blushed


"You've been in the house too long" she said
And I (naturally) fled


In my life
Why do I smile
At people who I'd much rather kick in the eye ?


I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
But heaven knows I'm miserable now


"You've been in the house too long" she said
And I (naturally) fled


In my life
Why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die ?

▼

even though your socks are higher than your hi-tops,
even though you wear socks and sandals together,
even though you take close-up photos of yourself,
you do wicked lip syncs XD
sings medley to "o holy night" and the meekash shuffle,
likes cheese so much your phone is yellow,
you're so much taller than me,
and you like bieber so much it gives you inspiration to your daily style,


i'd still adore you.

you're like amazingly wizard in everything.
with your shy and quirky style,
with the italian bread toasted ham and the subway thingy you love so much,
with your lakers hat you wear like everyday,
with your way of playing basketball,
and those nerdy braces.
and your g-shock watches.
and your vanilla chocs ice cream.
and your iphone 4s.

i will follow you into the dark

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
'cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the No's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

♥

smashing pumpkins - luna (acoustic version : best)


What moonsongs
Do you sing your babies?
What sunshine do you bring?

Who belongs
Who decides who's crazy
Who rights wrongs where others cling?

I'll sing for you
If you want me to
I'll give to you
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break

I go along
Just because I'm lazy
I go along to be with you

And those moonsongs
That you sing your babies
Will be the songs to see you through

I'll hear your song
If you want me to
I'll sing along
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break

I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
With you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
I'm
I'm so in love
I'm in love with you

:')

i love you :')

p.s : happy birthday ndablooo :*

it's the new hello

HEY GUESS WHAT I AM..

preparing for the new hello

and drop the goodbye.

ily

xx

hello and goodbye

sometimes in life

i wish i had a reset button,
rewind,
Slow mo,
fast forward,
pause,
stop,
off,

and delete button.

why?

because,
rewind , so i didn't make that mistake, that crucial mistake.
Go back to that time, to the dark ages.

Slow motion, to those kisses your lovers might gave

fast forward, to pass those bad memories, that we have to pass but we didn't want to . right?

pause, to enjoy the time without even mentioned or thought about the ticking-clock.

off, to be nothing.

and delete, somebody, some memories, or some feelings.

cancer

mychemicalromance .
***

Turn away,
If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors,
My sisters and my brothers, still,
I will not kiss you,
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

Now turn away,
'Cause I'm awful just to see
'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,
Oh, my agony,
Know that I will never marry,
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo
But counting down the days to go

It just ain't living
And I just hope you know

That if you say,
Goodbye today,
I'd ask you to be true.

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you