MERRY CHRISTMAS (mostly)

MERRY CHRISTMAS Y'ALL XOXOXOXOXOOXOOO.

there you go, a very sad-looking selfie of me in my holiday jumper, trying to look happy as always.

soooo! it's christmas eve and what am i doing with my life really. I should be out there in the dining room, helping my mom cause my family's having a fairly fancy christmas open-house for my dad's colleagues (probably) and mostly, my brothers' friends tomorrow but i'm here, in my room, simultaneously blogging. i don't know when it happened but i'm 100% sure that the internet had taken my life. rip to my virgin-ish fresh brain.

You know for the record, i'm typing all of this while listening to wham's last christmas. Last christmas has always been my favorite christmas song since i first knew Ashley Tisdale from high school musical. (ironic, i know) Well, she covered the song circa 2008 i guess and then i acknowledged george michael and his band called Wham!, and since then, i've been listening to the song million times. Speaking of christmas songs, All I Want for Christmas by Mariah Carey is also my favorite christmas song. I just love the euphoria that i imagined in my head whenever this song came on. It's just soo good i can't even... Well played, mariah. :)

Anyway, as you probably know, school's off (finally...), i got my report card yesterday and well, you know what, straight A's are the new black. :D Other than that, i'll be spending the rest of the holiday....in my house. Yep, i won't go anywhere, at least that's what i've been told by my parents, just 2 weeks, at home, with my lovely speed internet connection. To be honest with you, I'm really really unsure about how i should feel and react to this. In one side, i should be happy because i can relax my mind and get a full rest, but in another side, are you for real? Like, i've been working my ass off this semester and can't a girl get her time-off? I was expecting some more dramatic family outing this december and well, there you go reality.

Maybe i should just be happy about whatever decision my parents are making for me this holiday because i'm going to a new school next year, and we're probably saving a lot of money since now so, i really have to understand them. So i guess, the things that i'll do from now on to next week will require a lot of boring tv shows, chocolate milk, topshop jumpers, shitload of sleep (i won't take it for granted, i swear!) and not give an eff about whatever it is that is happening because let me tell you this, it's been a fairly sh*tty month since october, and dramas are here and there and this holiday, i swear, i'll keep my mind off of those and JUST HAVE FUN. 

Lastly, happy christmas eve (and merry christmas) to all of you who celebrate it in the church with Jesus, merry "non-religious" christmas to those who celebrate it with san miguel, coronas, and debauchery getting hammered-drunk, hope the party you're attending is dogs-bollocks and to all who don’t celebrate it, hope you have a good monday slash tuesday. :D

If i don't post anything until new year, i just wanna say, it's been a fairly good year with you lovely readers, the pageviews have been increasing like MAD this year, (although 2012 was kinda annoying per se) but above all of that, i love you all. I wish you all the best, i hope you eat yourselves silly, i hope you get all the presents you wished to get and i hope your day is filled with happiness and loveliness and blessing. Merry christmas & Happy new year.

always yours,

xx
m.

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BONUS : santa i've been great this year, please just let me get this for christmas, this is not too much to ask....... i guess?

you make me wanna curve the corners of my mouth

Today was a lousy day. It was bad in any way possible. I didn't exactly know why but i already sensed it since i woke up. I was grumpy and gloomy and i just didn't feel like doing anything. To say that i felt like sh*t was an understatement. (Maybe it's because i'm on my period, or maybe it's just bad luck.) Everything seemed audibly and visibly annoying, and this brought me to the shittiest mood ever. The mood spread into my mom's and then everyone and then the next thing i know is of all the bad days i've experienced before, i could crown today as one of the worst days..ever.

It all started when i went to school this morning, i got a massive-massive headache from last night (ha) and i couldn't do anything about it. Panadol or anything couldn't cover the pain and so I tried to eat ...but my body denied everything i tried to swallow. I half-heartedly went back to class and finished 3rd period. I swear it was the worst-- i didn't get the chance to swap places for the class retreat, and then another bad thing happened, and it just went like a cycle, or a circle; bad things happened one after another and long story short, finally i got the chance to go home and clear my mind.

While walking home, i counted all the steps and within every step, i tried to memorize about all the bad things i've experienced lately. Not only today-- these past few weeks i've been getting a whole lot of problems. Some blame fate, some blame karma, but i think it's just bad luck. When i reached home, everything was still not as good as what i expected. I couldn't connect my house' wifi to my mac and my iPod and i thought to myself, the world is slowly coming to an end.

That was the final thing and suddenly an idea filled into the peak of my head and as cliche as it is, i felt like that cheesy speechbubble filled with a lamp on top of me clinked and i thought, why don't you try to make yourself happy?

I opened my ms word and i made a list of all the things that make me happy. And not so long after that, i wander into my own thoughts.

The first thing that popped into my mind was the kooks' song called Junk Of The Heart. The intro never fails to amuse me, and also She&Him's This Is Not A Test comes next on the list. The next thing that makes me happy is the fact that I like to think that i'm on a movie, like all the problems i'm facing right now is the climax, and then things will sort by itself (which is nonsense in real life) and then, cut! Roll the credits, please. Other than that i like to pretend that i'm a singer and my bath tub is the stage where i perform. People may not know this but i think i'm quite decent at singing. My showercap says so. And after that i like to dance naked-- only in my robe and spin the belt around and around. The next thing might sound a bit corny but people who are madly in love with each other make me happy. They make me realize that love isn't just a piece of time in the world, it's actually worth waiting for, you know? Hehe. And the last thing that makes me happy is being naked. Being naked is liberating, i feel so free and i don't know, it feels good.

Time flies fast when you don't have too much time on your hands. And by that the next thing i knew that it was short to midnight when i was listening to piledriver waltz by the arctic monkeys. It's a routine-- to close my eyes everytime i play this song, and so i tried to relax all the tenses i've had before. I could hear the outside noises sneaking through my earphones, to be honest, it surprisingly pleased me--it was soft and moist, yet it still remained quiet somehow. The tunes cheered me up in some way and suddenly it made me happy. Well this thing is simple, but it made me smile.

See? After all, today wasn't that bad. In fact, everything isn't that bad after all. Whenever you feel like there's nothing you can do to fight all the problems ...just look on the bright side. (No seriously.) I usually don't pay attention to all the small but good things that happen to myself. I only focus on the bad things and i forgot about being free about having all of these things i have right now, about how blessed i am, etc etc. Maybe we're all too focused on all the bad things that happen to ourselves and we forgot about how fun life could be. What about dancing naked and singing off-key and just leave your morning commute? Be happy while you can. I think you should just forget all your problems for a while, take off your clothes, put on your robe and dance to Lady Gaga. (Gonna be okay. Doo-doo-doo-doo Just dance.)

my proudest possesion II {a very long post.}

Hi everyone!

so anyway, i'm really excited to write this post because im gonna show off some of my new stuffs from Holland and Switzerland!!!!! And no, no. I'm not the one who got the chance to spend my holiday there but my brother was lucky and clever, so yeh. This is his 3rd time though.
At first he told me that he was going to go to amsterdam and switzerland again i was all like

but then he said 'i'll buy you things, don't worry.' and then i was like

Long story short, he decided to buy me these. (AAAAA IM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW)

So remember the post when i told you that i bought my very first vinyl? Well now i have 16 of them. I KNOW RIGHT. *and the tears stream down my face*

But first things first, here's my baby-turntable that my brother gave me :

and here are the vinyls.

oh wait, these are the places where my brother bought them :

here they are :

{okay so im just going to post a few of them. why? because if i post all of my vinyls, this post will be extremely boring, broseph.}

and theeeen, my brother gave me 5 packs of chocolate mints, which are my favorites. and also, my aunt marja from  Holland gave me a huge box of chocolates and biscuits. diet what?

and the last one, my favorite, he bought me this from swiss :D

p.s : i love you so muccccch, broooo. you are the most wonderful + kindest human being in this world, literally. i can't thank you enough for the vinyls + turntables. :")

life soundtrack

The instructions:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool... and a lot of the songs fit with the setting

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Opening Credits: Black Hole - She & Him
- well, my life's gonna be fun hahaha.

Waking Up: Get Burned - Sleeper Agent
- yes happy tune happy tune woohooooooo, super fit!


First Day At School: Islands - David's Lyre
- well.......

Falling In Love: Quel qu'un ma dit - Carla Bruni
- yes!

Fight Song: Time to wander - gypsy & the cat
- what.................

Breaking Up: As is - Ani DiFranco
- gives me the idea that breaking up ain't always about sad songs hahah

Prom night/Life's ok: Bi Polar Bear - Silver Swans
- yea mannnnn

Mental Breakdown: Sugar Town - Zooey Deschanel
- ok this is weird.

Driving: World News - Local Natives
- yes! super fit

Flashback: Young Love - Mystery Jets ft. Laura Marling
- hahahaha this is fun

Getting back together: Love Lost - The Temper Trap
- i have no idea. super fit

Wedding: Baby i'm yours - arctic monkeys
- i swear to God this is on shuffle, i swear

Birth of Child: Mango tree - angus & julia stones
- beautiful :')

Final Battle: If he likes it, let him do it - the drums
- the gloomy tune fits perfectly

Funeral Song: If she wants me - belle & sebastian
- okay this is weird.


End credits : Yesterday once more - the carpenters
- this is funny bcs the title hahaa

I'm gonna love you more

Phoenix - Consolation Prizes










It started all in early september
When my godgiven little became a lot older 
Goodbyes seal my broken heart 
Hold on to your teardrops, you got a long way to go

Did you get older doing nothing today?
Don't you wanna stop complaining?
If one is easy then hard is two
Noone knows where you're heading to
Once my private collection, always betting on you

No consolation prizes
Spit out your lies & chewing gum
Cut off your hair yeah that's it!
If you look like that I swear I'm gonna love you more

I thought about this for a long time
Never had the chance to try and make it better 
My heart is waiting for a new you 
And there's no other option on the schedule

Love like ours should never die with years 
Once you start you can't ever go backwards 
Cause if dark is one then bright is two 
Noone knows where we're heading to 
No matter what it takes, never give up on you

I want you to change it all
I am gonna make it better

No consolation prizes
Spit out your lies & chewing gum
Cut off your hair yeah that's it!
If you look like that I swear I'm gonna love you more

No consolation prizes
Spit out your lies & chewing gum
Cut off your hair yeah that's it!
If you look like that I swear I'm gonna love you more

My proudest possession

i bought my very first vinyl record yesterday. I was a bit confused whether i should buy suck it and see or contra but then i bought suck it and see instead.

I've been dying to buy vinyl records since a year ago but i hesitated and bought slash downloaded mp3s instead. (which was a total nah bcs vinyls' quality is 10 times better than mp3s, & i'm being dead-serious here.)

so yeah that's the big news & enjoy your marzo folks. i love you (ew) bye loves (ew-combo)

one more year of existence

today is my birthday! yea buddie!


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anyway, since i'm getting a lil bit older than before.. just like others say, a lil bit older a lil bit bolder, let's hope that i can be a better person , wiser, nicer, and smarter all the time. ha.

a lot of things happened last year before i turned this age, good things, bad things, everything. i've done a lot of selfless good deeds, enough work to make me faint & plenty of other stuffs that i can't write here. Most of them are good ones but well, you know, life isn't "life" without problems.

many said that this age is a good age, well ........ *fingers crossed*. also, they often call it the transition. i'm 99% sure that me, myself, cannot handle spontaneous-changes, and adaptation and blablabla, but! (my favorite word after perplexe; but; simple BUT effective) at the end of the day, i gotta face it anyway. *swag*

this year i don't feel like throwing a really big party, i've thrown and done enough parties for 2011 and yep that's it. i started this age with my loved ones, zayn and well a tiny cupcake with none of candles attached to them. i have no idea why but it was pretty goooooood (and yes i didn't finish 'em) then? school, and as per usual.

well what can i say more, let's do this poo!

so i guess that's it! have a nice birthday

bonus :
this girl is still younger than she looks

perfection

this, my friends, is my visible idea of perfection.



when i first saw the title on the suggestion bar i was like

friends.. and... niall horan.. combined........i can't even.........

HEYAYEYEYAYAAAAAEYEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA FINALLY someone who's brilliant enough to make these kind of videos. Thank you very much for making this video. Kudos to you!

10 things i have to do before i die

lame...i know haha but it's fun anywayssssz.

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1.I want to watch these bands live

MGMT

Arctic Monkeys

2. I want to go to Greece. and maybe london

3.Dyed my hair into purple-amethyst or blue-aqua. (ombre)

4. Kayang in eiffel. (i've been to eiffel, but i didn't do the kayang thingy.)
5. Meet Zoeey deschanel, fearne cotton and cassandra niki in person.

zooey deschanel.

6. go to new york fashion week. or perhaps ..new york's enough. hahahaha

7. Get married. heh
8. Buy my parents a new house. dream big
9. Write a book....about my life. heh

AND

LAST!!!!!

10. i wanna get this.. or maybe that.. or maybe that one, inked.

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even though your socks are higher than your hi-tops,
even though you wear socks and sandals together,
even though you take close-up photos of yourself,
you do wicked lip syncs XD
sings medley to "o holy night" and the meekash shuffle,
likes cheese so much your phone is yellow,
you're so much taller than me,
and you like bieber so much it gives you inspiration to your daily style,


i'd still adore you.

you're like amazingly wizard in everything.
with your shy and quirky style,
with the italian bread toasted ham and the subway thingy you love so much,
with your lakers hat you wear like everyday,
with your way of playing basketball,
and those nerdy braces.
and your g-shock watches.
and your vanilla chocs ice cream.
and your iphone 4s.

random-ish

hi :)

so today i decided not to go to school. why? it's not really important anyway. then why did i write that on -- oh well forget it.

oh, i just got back from milo cup 2011! so stoked, everything was managed very well & the crowd was crazy.
our dance team turned out to be the 2nd runner up & us (supporters) won the first prize hahahaha,too shocking bcs all of our rivals were really tough to compete. congrats congrats tricera {}

anyway, i've been recovering from my un-cheerful-ness life lately. (read the previous posts with 'sappy' or 'melodramatic' labels on it. caution : you would totally puke on your computer after approximately 3 minutes you finished reading them.. your welcome) after the time i force myself to meditate (?), i finally got the courage to put back my missing piece of 'the happy soul' i used to have before i receive that darn report card. the book "ice cream & sadness" helped me a lot though. worth the read :)

the last paragraph sounds way more cheesy than pizza hut's deluxe cheese, doesn't it hahaha

so, before it gets more cheesy, i should just, stop the post here.


so yeah, i guess that's all for this post.


bye folks :D

:')

i love you :')

p.s : happy birthday ndablooo :*