#day1: bali

HEY ALL.
just arrived in Bali. :) again , will spend my christmas eve here. sadly, i couldn't go to the church [tonight duh] because my parents were dead-tired. so we decided to go to the church tomorrow.

anyway, i'm posting this from my laptop. yeah i brought my modem, yeaay. fyi i'll be back to jkt on 2 january. so it seemed like i spent half of my holiday here.

oh and do you guys know the best places to go in here? like slingshots/ stuffs like that? if you do, pleaseee pleaseee please tell me. <3

mother's day love.

you give me a place to stay when no one else will.
you always make my breakfast.
you always make my dinner.
you love me because i'm me.
you treat me like i'm a child when i'm sick.
you cook my favorite foods.
you give the best advices.
you are stylish.
you are nice to everybody.
you are my role model.
you always have the best conversation.
you speak english , like FLUENTLY.
you care about me and everyone else.
you are honest.
you are my best friend forever.
you are beautiful.
you share your food with me, even though it's your favorite.
you always know how i feel.
you UNDERSTAND me.

and the last one,
you are my mother.


happy mother's day mom. <3

H-infinity.

tomorrow : report card.

can i just, skip tomorrow and be back on 3 january 2011? haa. of course not.
then why did i say that? oh, and why are we talking about this right now? i don't know either. hahahahhaa.

as you know, every student in my school HATES the report-card-day. because of their afraid-ness of the result maybe. or, erm, idk hahaha.

report-card-day's tomorrow. that means , holiday's about to start in about 2 days. like i've said before ( havent i ? dunno forget) i'll spend the whole "happy-holiday" in Bali. With my Mom. And my dad. And my BROTHER. Let's just say.. the whole family. fyi i'll bring my laptop. and my own modem maybe. soo we'll still keep in touch.

then, what can i say?
oh 3 words : WISH-ME-LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

new year resolution

yeah it's 18 days to 2011! ayeaaah.

and so, year-after-year i always make some new year resolutions.actually, none of them happened. (i know right)

then, this year i make one again! yes,i regret nothing. B) WOO-HOO!
2011 resolution : K-A-Y-A-N-G

haaah. let's just hope it's not another useless new year resolution, amen.

sound effect!

i was just wondering, how wonderful life would be if it has a sound effect. like the movies you know? exactly.

and then we would have our own soundtrack of our life. life would be amazing.

isn't it cool, when we were running in the gym class and that M.I.A song just randomly played?

when we were sad , gloomy , and that secondhand serenade's songs just popped out of nowhere? i DIDN'T even need an iPod

when we were happy, on the cloud nine , everything was going "just okay", and we heard that "happy" song "Mr Blue Sky" by Lily Allen? *yeah i like lily allen, fyi.

when you were angry or scared and that "Alfred Hitchcock's Scary Theme Song" played? i would wet my pants. pee-ing. yeah. -_-

and other memorable things.

everybody's in love!

(background song : glee - taking chances)

"what makes today a good day, is the fact that today's a good day.( mind effed. )"

tgif eh? yeah. it's like everybody's in love with friday or something.

i think it's better to remove the word; "with friday or something."
i mean , EVERYBODY'S IN LOVE! except me. *i'm not desperate, I'M NOT I'M NOT I'M NOT*

half of my friends ARE (not WERE) dating right now.
me? you know me, i'm not. (:

some of you might think that IT IS frustating to be in the class, where half of the students are in a relationship and you're not. right now, i'm in that position. and i can tell that, it isn't frustating at all.

maybe it's hard , when your friends were with their bf/gf and you just sat there, alone thinking, "what am i supposed to do now..." and your bad mood flows. [luckily, it didn't happen to me. but according to my other single friends? HEYYEAH.]

it's normal to be in love, it's normal to care with others more than you have to, it's normal to be in a relationship, it's normal.
world turns upside down , and school feels like heaven. it's normal.

but those things are not happening YET to me ( or us). maybe in a few years or maybe later. i'm not in the mood for something like that.

i'm happy to be me, i'm happy to be single. i'm happy to be..what i really am. i believe that, time does wonderful things. we'll see (:

thanks.

MOM + DAD + BROTHER
thanks dear mom, for your advices, and your helps after all this time.
thanks dear dad, for all your kindness and EVERYTHING (:
thanks dear bro, for your jokes, and other silly things that we've shared.

LAPTOP
thanks my laptop, i've been sharing all my everything with you. my stories, my musics, my diary, my pics, EVERYTHING.

AURORA
thanks my little kiddie bear, we've been through everything together for 9 years of my life.

FRIENDS
thanks my moodboosters, you guys always cheer me up, thanks for helping me out at school , and all our stupid moments which was SUPER memorable, especially my class #nacools.

ALDITSA SADEGA
thanks my super duper role model. you made me learn about how tough life is, and i learned from you that life goes on.

BLOG
thanks my blog. we've been sharing all stories, and all of my favorite things. thanks to you cause, you're the "be-there" pal.

sleep too much; insomnia.

so, i'll have a FINAL exam , starting tomorrow.

looks like i have to wake up right away.
well, actually i SLEPT too much.

or if i didn't sleep too much, my brain was running out of control.
did you ever feel like, your brain received too much something so you couldn't think of anything? geez, am i the only one in the world who feel that?

what i need to do : focus.

it's really hard for me to focus on something, i didn't understand why.
i think it's because my swinging moods, unpredictable feelings, and sometimes i could get really super duper lost, it made me hard to make up my mind. and still,
what i HAVE to do is

wake up.

thoughts.

some of you , asked the reason that i deleted some posts and changed every single/little thing in this blog.

it's all because, i changed my way of thinking.
previously, i wasn't really serious about everything and i always underestimated anything, without really thinking of the consequence, or we could say , my way of thinking was absurd, random.

and now, as you know, i changed. my absurd way of thinking suddenly disappeared. i thought that, if i keep on thinking absurd-ly, when will i get mature? or will i be mature? and so, i began to think logic, well perhaps, a little mature/different than i used to be.

my deleted posts? yeah, i DELETED some.
i learned something that, my posts weren't really important. even though it took me months to thought about this thing.

i may lost some stories, number of posts, pictures or something, but i still have them in my memories. and also, after i thought about it many many times, i realized that i better keep it to myself. even though posts here, means everything but i can always post again and again and again right?

at first, i was afraid that in the future i'll be regretting this. i already said in my former post; "time machine/mesin waktu" that regretting's just a waste of time and it just brings back all the sadness.

but i just took all the risks, i already promise myself NOT to regret things in the past, but to LEARN, learn to LIVE IN THE MOMENT, and made my past as an experience.

Letters to Juliet (2010)

(background song: someday we'll know - mandy moore)

and so, i watched "letters to juliet" just a week ago. i'm so terribly late, right? haha.
but hey, i didn't want to talk about how late i was, but i wanted to talk about the film. yeah we could say that..haha

in the middle of the film, amanda seyfried's character said this :

"What' and ‘if’ two words as nonthreatening as words come. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: ‘What if?' "

what if, they didn't want to be my friends anymore? what if, i didn't make it? what if, i couldn't be what they want me to be? what if, i wasn't good enough at school? what if, i didn't make them proud? and other what-if(s).

then i stopped a while and thought about it,

and i realized that, this whole time i was that girl, the "i-don't-have-any-confidence" girl.

i was just wondering "what if" " what if" ,while any of them didn't really happen.

and i realized again, that wondering "what if" the whole time , was just a waste of time.

what will really happen is , if you thought about those "what-if(s)" the whole time, IT WILL really HAPPEN. cause, indirectly that's ,what you EXPECTED things to be.

and so, i changed. even i was afraid that maybe i was still that kind of person. and i was just hoping that i AM not. :)

but it was a trick.

"Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle."

"So one day, he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out -_-"

"You can't hold it in your hand
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it,"

"Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic."

Brick by Boring Brick - Paramore

i'm okay, trust me.

you like d&d, audrey hepburn, fangoria, harry houdini and croquet. you can't swim, you can't dance AND you don't know karate. face it. you'll never gonna make it.

"but i don't wanna make it."

Feel The Romance. My Brutal Romance. My Beautiful Romance. My Miserable Romance. My X-Rated Romance. My Harlequin Romance. My Innocent Romance. My Selfish Romance. My Pathetic Romance. My Childish Romance. My Watercooler Romance. My Chemical Romance :)

--mcr ; i'm not okay.

quote of the day

"if it's not like the movies... that's the way it should be" - Katy Perry

hi everyone!

Hi there,

Thanks for clicking this site, for taking your time to read my blog and of course if you're reading these words, it means that you want to know me a little further.

For a starter, this is how I look like in real life :

So, my name is Marsha. I am pretty much living an ordinary life, so ordinary that it's not even funny. I have only one sibling and that makes me the maknae of my family. (Google it, it's a Korean word.) I'd describe myself as witty, quiet, at times smug, and also narcissistic. The whole sentence makes me sound like I'm a very snobby person hahaha but it's quite true.

I have a very high interest in music, books and travelling. My favorite bands are the Arctic Monkeys, She & Him, Kings of Convenience, etc. Although I do like indie music soooo much, I also find myself drooling over K-Pop. (Not a guilty pleasure, I'm proud! Hahaha) It's a very rare combination, I know.
I started to read books when I was 8. My parents used to drove me to Periplus and picked books for me to read. I remember very clearly about Mom giving me The Famous Five and Tin Tin. From there, my interest in books grow until now.
I also like to travel (if I have enough cash...), because I simply enjoy learning and experiencing new things.

The reason I started this blog was because I had troubles interacting with people in real life. It's not as bad as it sounds, but I indeed have low social skills. Once I was in a large group of friends, but still I'm only close to one or two of them. Truth is, not everyone knows this. People who don't know me that well think or should I say, "label" me as an outroverted person. I'm a reserved person, I find it hard to get along with new people, let alone be close to them. I keep things to myself or whenever I feel like I should talk about it, I write about it instead. So yeah, I started to write things since I was little and I'm still doing it now. Writing helps me to sort my problems out strangely somehow, and through this blog, it helps me to express my thoughts, ideas and such that was once such a hard thing to do.

I thank you so much for taking the time to read my stories, even if it's boring or dumb or dull, but still , you sacrifice your time to read about something that I wrote. Ha! Once again, thanks to you and enjoy my blog.

maybe?

wah kayaknya bakalan jarang ngepost nih gue
haahha
gue udah jarang banget buka laptop -_-
OIYA
trekbol bb gue nih aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
tolong dong siapa gitu yang bisa benerin trekbol gua !! huhuh
sangat dibutuhkan haha :))

okeeeeee gada yang spesial hari ini haha
gua bosen
gua ngantuk
hhaha cacat bet ni post

biar ga makin cacat ato cacatnya ga berkelanjutan
mari kita akhiri dengan doa (loh) haha

okeoke dadaaaaaaaah
:*

ily

xx

NOVEMBER FOOL'S DAY

okay it’s just awkward hahaha

well.. you guys know ‘april's fool’ right?

TODAY ,2 of my best friends at my class ,judith and sarah LIED to me

(why am i always be the victim of their crime-_-)

about something, and that totally made me down. hahahahaha still laughing right now at my stupidity hahaha :)))))

and they called it.. ‘november mop’ or in english ’ NOVEMBER FOOL’ HAHA :))

if ‘april's fool’ is just 1 day, ‘november fool’ is.. THE WHOLE MONTH!

so we ( sarah judith and me, or WILL maybe : kesul brian ditto jl tasya itin salim dellla and also maybe OTHER fulvous-ians.) are going to lie TO innocent people at our class, maybe our teacher too :P:P:P

and then if they believe.. we will SCREAM OUT LOUD :
“PUNKD ! NOVEMBER MOP!” gotcha, baby.

and then the BEST LIAR (like she/he told many many lies this month) and the MOST truth-able LIAR got a present at the end of the month!

pretty exciting huh?

GO Fulvousssss ! :DDD

krr..

krrrr...
happy halloween!

TRICK

OR


TREAT?

ily

xx

p.s : my blackberry, diana , her hands (I MEAN trackballs, trying to be creative here) couldn't be used. so yeaaaa please contact me to my xl number.
GET WELL SOON DIANA ! xoxo

wishlist!

... !

black.

26-10-10
tsunami at mentawai and volcano at merapi

rough days for our nation. :(

may our thoughts and prayers go out to all the people of Mentawai and Merapi who have lost their families and their loved ones. God Bless them always.

ily

xx

remember panic at the disco?

....♥

currently in love with...

.....♥

dream city :)

a song by alicia keys,
empire state of mind.
about.. my dream city hehe :)

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Ooohh New York x2

Grew up in a town that is famous as the place of movie scenes
Noise was always loud, there are sirens all around and the streets are mean
If I can make it here, I can make it anywhere, that's what they say
Seeing my face in lights or my name on marquees found down on Broadway

Even if it ain’t all it seems, I got a pocketful of dreams
Baby, I'm from New York
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There's nothing you can't do
Now you're in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Hear it for New York, New York, New York!

On the avenue, there ain't never a curfew, ladies work so hard
Such a melting pot, on the corner selling rock, preachers pray to God
Hail a gypsy cab, takes me down from Harlem to the Brooklyn Bridge
Some will sleep tonight with a hunger far more than an empty fridge

I'm gonna make it by any means, I got a pocketful of dreams
Baby, I'm from New York
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There's nothing you can't do
Now you're in New York
These street will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Hear it for New York, New York, New York!

One hand in the air for the big city,
Street lights, big dreams all looking pretty
No place in the world that can compare
Put your lighters in the air, everybody say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

In New York
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There's nothing you can't do
Now you're in New York
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Now you're in New York!

Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There's nothing you can't do
Now you're in New York
These street will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Hear it for New York!

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it's the new hello

HEY GUESS WHAT I AM..

preparing for the new hello

and drop the goodbye.

ily

xx

imisstheoldme

i want to go back to reality.

well ,
reality
is full of hypocrite.

reality,
is full of lies.

but i need to go back to reality,
i really need to get out from the "fantasy" right now

my fantasy world is getting sucker and sucker!

these problems,these riddles
i want to solve them , but i couldn't ,

my head is full of question marks right now,
but your head is full of , idk, exclamation mark maybe.

BUT

still, whatever happened,
we're not going anywhere.
we can't escape,
we just walk in the same line,
because you, and me,
we're into the same direction :) :*

hello and goodbye

sometimes in life

i wish i had a reset button,
rewind,
Slow mo,
fast forward,
pause,
stop,
off,

and delete button.

why?

because,
rewind , so i didn't make that mistake, that crucial mistake.
Go back to that time, to the dark ages.

Slow motion, to those kisses your lovers might gave

fast forward, to pass those bad memories, that we have to pass but we didn't want to . right?

pause, to enjoy the time without even mentioned or thought about the ticking-clock.

off, to be nothing.

and delete, somebody, some memories, or some feelings.

happy batik day

Happy Batik Day ! - 2 Oct 2010 -

quote of the day

"Don't say yes if it's no. Don't say no if it's yes. False hope breaks people down." - Tiffany William

cancer

mychemicalromance .
***

Turn away,
If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors,
My sisters and my brothers, still,
I will not kiss you,
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

Now turn away,
'Cause I'm awful just to see
'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,
Oh, my agony,
Know that I will never marry,
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo
But counting down the days to go

It just ain't living
And I just hope you know

That if you say,
Goodbye today,
I'd ask you to be true.

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

winnie the pooh bear!

winnie the pooh♥

isn't pooh cute? yes he is! hehehe.


ily

xx

memory over moment

(courtesy of Oddisey SBM ITB 2010 romance group)
"erasing someone from your mind is easy, getting them out of your heart is another story"

***

Ia yang divonis mati atas pembunuhan terhadap adiknya sendiri, pembunuhan yang ia lakukan bagai tanpa motif

Ia yang mengabdikan dirinya pada hukum, terpanggil untuk menyelidiki gerak gerik seorang pemimpin organisasi kriminal

Ia yang akhirnya menemukan pasangan hidupnya, orang yang amat ia cintai. Namun cinta yang telah begitu tinggi, tidak mampu menyelesaikan segalanya.

Ia yang membuat berbagai boneka indah. Dari begitu banyak jenis dan bentuk kreasinya, hanya satu yang ia cintai. Begitu dalam.

Tak jauh dari mereka, berdiri seseorang yang tertutup bayangan, seseorang yang memperhatikan setiap gerakan. Dan mengatur setiap subjek dalam dunia mereka.

Seseorang yang bertepuk tangan

grim, bleak-ly , extremely , odd.

...okay ..
breathe.
*fuwah*

HELLO. zzz
today's the first day of my midterms.
i don't even know if it went well or not. huhu

the subjects were biology and english.
biology WENT almost PERFECT until ...the essay part came by. ergh
AND
english wasn't very well.
there are like, 2 parts of this exam (english)
reading and writing
i'm not very good at the writing test.
i can say, i can't do the test.

uuh let's hope that i'm not going to fail at these torturing midterms. AMEN.

ily

xx

midterms

byebye happiness.
hell-o suramness,

tomorrow
i
will
have
my
MIDTERMS!


aaaaaaaaaaaaaa doomsday!

#21: play the piano and sang badly

when i feel desperate , mostly everyday haha
i play piano.

the thing is when you heard a song and then you could play it on piano , and after that you sang it badly (or well if you could sing h3h3)

but for those who cant, like me.....
sing it loudly,
badly,
why?

make your heart scream, you have to let the feelings out. :)

i know,


AWESOME!

#17: look at the moon over there , i feel close.

it's funny how 2 different people are separated and live at the exact different places than each others'.
well, it might be really far,

but when they look at the moon over there,
they look on the same moon.

suddenly,

they could feel really2 close to each other. (aww love, aww yuck)


AWESOME!

#11: when the phone rings as you wished for

oh, it's you again. sup sir swagger?



AWESOME!

#20: 11:12

"well i wished for ...

OH CRAP I MISSED IT! "


LOL i do that a lot.
i mean, almost EVERYDAY
bahahaha


AWESOME!

#24: brother bear

no my brother IS NOT a bear.
although he looks like haha.

well here's the link to watch and hear my brother's play. he plays the guitar part :D \m/
the LINK (it's on youtube) : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AFNPN1tYs88

he's really really ....


AWESOME!

#12: curl(y) rules the world

i curled my hair.
they look ...cute.




AWESOME!

HELP ME WOY

PLEASE HELP ME WITH MY HISTORY HOMEWORK.
PING/BUZZ NOW HUHUHUHUHUHUHUHU

ily

xx

zombie.

ergh i feel like a zombie right now

school is about to start (AGAIN.) in like 3 days
im totally,really,super freaked out right now.
(if you could see my face right now i can tell that you want to slap it at the first time.)
i think i need some extra holiday(s)
yeah even if i get some extra holiday, i wouldn't OR i couldn't go anywhere.
why?
because
the
midterms
are
about
to
start
RIGHT AFTER
the
holiday.
that means i have to: study extra hard, study extra hard, AND study extra hard.

i feel like half of my soul is gone. huhuhuhu

errrrrr...wish me luck . that's all i can say... *sigh*.

ily

xx

:)

new me
hahaha
new blog
yes, this is my second blog.

welcome to my blog :)

ily,
xx