brain roll(s) and deep thoughts

why hello der! what's the cracka lackin erryone yooooo
{read in half gangster - half british accent. how so? figure out yourself.}

so first of all, i have no idea why i wrote 'brain roll(s)' as the title post and why i did that intro. (because i can). it just wind into my mind and if this explanation helps, brain-roll isn't like sushi roll. *quick tip : don't imagine a brain-roll, you'll puke bricks. literally.

...i just wrote a whole paragraph about brain-roll, which i don't even know about its own existence, but meh.

and this is getting off-topic and nowhere so, yeah.

#
(play Set The Tigers Free by Villagers to add more realistic sense, it helped me write this post.)

Sorry for abandoning this blog with quality writing (haha!). i've been through a lot of things and problems and struggles with my own self. For some reasons, I've distant myself from some things that i sadly can't write here (because it's too personal, sorry.), but hopefully i'll get better/recover soon.

I've been thinking a lot, deep thoughts nor easy ones. considering i'll leave in approximately a year from now, i have a lot to leave, gain and/or take.

to be honest, i haven't been using time quite wisely these 5 months. I didn't think about stuffs and like MGMT said on their song 'Kids', no time to think of consequences. I didn't think- i just did. That left me a little bit of remorse when i think back about them.

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To lose some or leave things behind.
I have to leave a few things or maybe a few certain people behind. Which is quite a sad thing, because i personally know that 25% of myself are going to miss them. But like what society has taught and told me, they said that we'll eventually change. People change, we change, you change. Being the no-jimmy-protested type of person myself, i think i must agree... to disagree.

Instead of being told that i've changed, i'm going to act normal and say, 'I don't change, i just learn to live myself out of yours.'.

Because no matter what, we can't keep thinking that those stuffs are coming back, and happy or not, we'll have to face another day, with or without them.

To get some or gain slash take.
I still need to learn a lot-- we all are. There are lots and lots of things for me to gain or take from all the people that surround me everyday. Not to be exactly like them, but learn how to be like them.

Aside from gaining others' great deeds, i also promised myself to gain a whole lot of experiences before i leave.
Experiences. Sad, happy, winning, losing. I've been told 'No'-s a lot. Got rejected, replaced, ignored and despite all the sadness after it, the whole scenery gave me a rather exciting experience. Cheesy and cliche but it's true though. Now I can see why a lot of people can relate to the infamous 'Experience is the best teacher' quote.
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Despite all the stuffs above, I might as well pull an LMFAO and get all the fun and keep being the person i was yesterday, but i think it's not the best decision to take. Growing up as a better person ain't as easy as it seems. Because in fact, everything is not what it seems.

But after all, by doing all the stuffs i've written above, i think i'm ready to leave.

the nosy issue

yo yo yo yo yo!

how's everyone doing? mine's pretty much the same, well a little bit better actually because .............i'm on holiday, woop wooooop!

~

anyway, today i'm going to post about nosy people. yeah, that's right. nosy. or kepo. or whatever you name it.

so today i went on skype, checked some new messages on bbm, and posted a status. "to die by your side is such a heavenly way to die..". i took it from the smiths' song; there is a light that never goes out. i went outside, eat, eat some more, and blah blah blah morning routine.

and then i log on into tumblr and as per usual, greeted by a bunch of 1d photos. hahaha. ha. (is that even necessary to write on here? no? well i'm the owner of this blog so if you don't think it's necessary, get the- jk bbysz lol let me love you) SORRY there are a lot of things going on my mind tonight, so please excuse my behavior. MOVE ALONG!

and then i watched some videos on youtube. while i was waiting for the video to buffer, i checked my blackberry messenger and saw -not- a friend of mine, (actually i didn't want to give this person my pin and accept him/her, but at the time i thought i was being really really rude so yeah) sent me this message :

"Hey gurl sisssy, who is dat on yer statuss? xxxxxxxxx"

and i was just like,

At first i thought it was nice that he/she was being all caring-and-lovey-dovey but then, who dafu- are you? (i know him/her but ....you get it). I answered 'eh noone' and watched the video bcs the buffer(ing) was already finished. I checked my bbm again and found this message, sent by the same person. that nosy muthaf- dipsh- fffffstick :

"Just tellmeh i wont like tell anyone omg xxx"

what. is. the. problem. with. you. Let me tell you that this is not the first time she/he forcing slash mind-raping (what) me to tell him/her about my love life. The other day i posted 'andrew <3' {hehe} on my status and he/she just went la-di-da-ing and sent me this : 'andrew who?????? :/' i answered him/her with a laugh and he/she forced me to tell him/her. At the end of the day, he/she ended up being all omg-im-so-mad bcs i trolled him/her. Ha. eat that, f-stick. Oh and the other day when me and my friend were in a group crying session on skype and he/she didn't even ask our permission to join and just got there and being all nosy. And etc. (i'm dead-serious, this is not the first time. if today was the first time, i ain't gon make a big deal out of it, bbz.) (what did i just type?) (seriously?)

back to the current time,  i told her the truth that the status was not meant for anyone. and she replied with an angry emoticon, and FULL CAPSLOCK. "UGH YOU'RE SO FISHY!!!!!!!!!!!! >:/ >:/" what. did. i. just. read.

okay anybody, just, hold my poodle. seriously... Jesus, what's the matter with you? You don't even know me that well, you have nothing against me, and you know nothing about my life. Okay, if that's your way of making friends.......you're weird. I'm sorry, but it's true. People... they don't like you if you're being such a creep and just dive into their problems. It's none of your business and it's friggin annoying okay? Being such a nosy person IS NOT A GOOD THING.

Imagine, everytime you're on the glossy-gossip-session with your friends and a random nosy person just pops out of nowhere, asking the latest juicy thing. everyday. Terrible, i know. Irritating? YES! It's like eating ben & jerry's in front of baskin robbins... it's just plain wrong.

And now that nosy person is probably reading this and thinking how mean i am, which is 100% true and guess wut bytcccchz, i admit it. and that's probably why boys aren't into me. and that's a completely different issue. i should probably stick with the nosy-people situation. but meh, haters gon hate, potatoes gon potate.

so yeah now i'm gonna go make some sandwiches, that's right sandwiches boo-hoo and then...........it's time for some movie partay time, YEA MAN!

* bonus *

check out the drums' acoustic performance! i love love love love them, big time!



and newsflash i got 'there is a light that never goes out' inked to my stomach ha ha

How to Get More Money a la thebraincycles

ello everybody!{as per usual don't mind the titles, they're so da*n cheesy} (<-- insert british accent here)

 How are things going? i hope they're okay because mine's SO DARN GREEEEEAAAAAAATTTTT!!!!! .....Not really. But yeah everything's fine, they are "just" fine, not "meh" and not "omgomgomg".

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So if you already read my last post about the crate digging stuff, what do you think? friends and my family... nah, they don't really appreciate them the way i praise vinyl records but whatever they don't understand how much i love them. (mom dad wild bro troll friends lolololol sorreh if yoou read this, aww let me love you) I - LOVE - THEM! {vinyls.-- SORRY ,again.}

I tend to get more money to buy another vinyl record, which is a little bit hard for me to do because i'm not fasting this month ..so yeah, suck things suck. And so instead of whining like a spoiled brat on social medias which pisses people off most of the times, i thought, "why don't i do something instead of wait for something?" So here goes my brilliant ideas to buy my new vinyl record or to get more money to buy them :

1) Join a circus
2) Drop out of school and start singing and signed by simon cowell
3) Marry all of one direction members and held a charity together (dang it's a bonus.)
4) Eat food for money
5) Eat meat for money
6) Will roll for money
7) cry until someone gives you money
8) bite other people's hand and say rawr and convince them that you're down syndrome and keep doing the same thing until they give you money
9) go to parties and mob them with your amazing talent on gymnastics and when it's over tell them to give you money.
10) back to number 1.

+ etc.

The thing is, i have to work extra hard slash study 9 hours a day (not only do the midterms are coming up in 3 days but ..ah you get the point) slash work my friggin ass off for one vinyl. ONE VINYL. Why? Because they are really expensive here and rare and stuffs, so yeah. #prayforthisgirls'rippedheart and after a whole lot of words i typed here i just realized that now i'm bragging about stuffs on my own blog.

So yeah. Im done.


BONUS : current obsession --> gifs

hehehehe

If you woke up as the opposite sex, whats the first thing you would do?
- scream

Are you addicted to anything?
- gums?

What do you see in a guy/girl?
- i like a guy who likes carrots. trolololo no, i like a guy with a great personality and intelligent.

Has an animal ever attacked you?
- nope

When was the last time someone made you laugh really hard?
- God i forgot, like, 3 weeks ago?

Do you find piercings/tattoos attractive?
- tattoos ; YEEEEEAAA BUDDIE

What's the weirdest thing you've ever licked?
- pen ink

When you wake up, what's the first thought that runs through your head?
- food

Do you actually believe Alaska is covered in snow?
- yea...isn't it?

Are you ever purposely irritating?
- i don't know. hahaha

Would you ever play strip poker?
- hahaha no

If you could make someone disappear, who would it be?
- no one, i love everyone hahaha

Look behind you, what do you see?
- couch

What's your fav thing about the opposite sex?
- err, hm. stach?

What's the most important thing to you?
- my family

What would you be doing right now if you were kicked off your computer?
- sleeping/eating. yes my holiday is that pathetic.

How do you spend your weekends?
- hang out with some friends/tumblr-ing/blogging

Who do you want to be with right now?
- zooey deschanel or tavi gevinson

Are you fun to hang with?
- maybe. ohohoho i sure the heck am

What country would you love to visit?
- greece

What's on your mind right now?
- answering these questions. horan actually

When was the last time you went to a good party?
- err a week ago

Fav song?
- heaven's on fire

Can you lick your elbow?
- nope

If you jumped out your bedroom window right now, how injured would you be?
- bruises only.

What would you do if your bf/gf cheated on you with your best friend?
- i'd do the sliding tackle to them. ha.

Do you like anyone you can't have?
- yeah. #foreveralone

Do you dance even without music?
- yep!

Does anyone tease you cause of your name?
- yea :(

What song is stuck in your head right now?
- video games - lana del rey

What's your darkest secret?
- ??

What do you think is at the end of the rainbow?
- mind blown...........clouds.

If a blind guy/girl started hitting on you, what would you do?
- froze B) f-yeaaaaa

What was the last concert you want to?
- paramore

Do you speak your mind?
- YEPPP ALL THE TIME BUD.

Can you handle the truth?
- yes. absolutely.

What would you do if someone random on the street came up to you and started hitting on you?
- i'd just froze and do the jenna marbles face.

Ever been caught naked?
- nope.

Ever been in a fight?
- yep.

If so did you win?
- nope.

Have you ever kissed your bestfriend?
- nope. as in kissed = make out

Done anything illegal lately?
- "everything is legal if you don't get caught"

Name the most stupidest thing you've ever done?
- dance without no music and get caught

Would you talk to someone you don't know on the internet?
- nope.. stranger-danger

Ever been in trouble for something you didn't do?
- YEA. GERRAIYDFGHKASDFGHJKL

Ever done anything stupid towards a cop?
- yea! ahahaha

Have you ever been in an accident of some sort?
- nope

If yes, may I ask what the accident was? (You don't have to answer this if you don't want to)


Have you lied to your parents about where you've been or going?
- no

Ever had a prank turn out wrong? (and I don't mean the person dying or anything like that)
- yeah -_-

Would you send money to a starving family in another country?
- yeah i'd love to

Are you hungry?
- yes

If you could speak another language, what would it be?
- i'd love to speak french, greek.

One word to describe yourself?
- rigid

To describe your friends?
- cheerful

What's the last present you've received?
- a tambourine hahaha

What would you rather have as a name?
- sky marie j.

Any siblings?
- yep

Are you a sporty kind of person or do you like to lay around and do nothing but watch tv or sit at the computer?
- lay around and do nothing and sit at the computer and laugh at nothing

Could you outrun a bus?
- i think so...

You and your friends are bored. What do you do?
- dancing like an egg-head

Who hates Twilight as much as I do?
- ms.dennise my english teacher trolololo

What's your favorite thing to do in your spare time?
- listen to music

What's your fav website?
- www.tumblr.com

Single or Taken?
- single

Good or Bad kisser?
- good. no matter what, i'm good. haha

What would you do if the world were coming to an end?
- i'd kiss harry styles. yea buddie

Biggest regret ever?
- i don't regret things. i, regret, NOTHING. *ba dum tss*

Last but not least. What's your name?
- stupid question

trolololo

apparently i have no life ......and so, these are 2 videos that had successfully brighten up my mood. and my day. ...period



hahaha i know right, lol at shane oman. :))

and,



hahahaha. ha. ha.

welcome december.

so yeah ! hello everyone. well........


IT'S FRIGGIN DECEMBER ALREADY? oh my God, things are happening so fast. -_-

ehmmm what can i say, welcome welcome decembuhr then (: it's all about the christmas, and mostly, new year. woot woot.
anyway, it's like h-16 until holiday and i still don't know where and how to spend my not-so-long holiday. hmft, my father's going to korea on christmas, and my brother's going to bali. soo yeah. i guess it's a blu ray marathon from 17-31 december. #desperado

grrrrh and just so you know i'm typing all of these words while my brain is working on the phytagoras thingy. super.

(not so) fun random facts about......me.

i just finished my homework&assignments..... and i have no clue what to do with my life anymore. crickey
so yeah , here are some not-so-fun-but-read-it-anyway-facts about me >:D

--

1) i can never eat breakfast (i will puke after i swallow it down my throat......okay now that, is disgusting.)
2) i often frown after i laugh so hard at something
3) i can't sleep without my blackberry & aurora
4) i often say this to myself : "God bless moi" ..after i sneeze
5) i H A T E *again* HHHAAATTTTTEEE RAISINS!
6) i take photos of myself everyday
7) i can't go a day without looking at myself on the mirror. HAHAHAHA
8) i feel nauseous after i get a haircut. this is real
9) i slap myself after/if i do or go wrong on doing something. haaha stupid
10) i can rap super bass, the whole song

etc.

hahaha yeaaah sorry about the inappropriate & unimportant blabbing, pls do understand dear fellow brainy followers&readers :p

the art of doing nothing [100questions]

HEY! i'm finally back. my freshman year just ended last week and now i'm on holidaaay yeay. haha.
unfortunately i got nothing to do at home -_-, because my dad works all the time. :/ haha.

anyway, this post is about me answering 100 random questions.
here it goes!

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1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"- Panik tingkat ujian nasional"

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch?
- my kipling bag

3. Before you started this survey, what were you doing?
- youtube-ing

4. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
- a music show like trl i guess

5. Without looking, guess what time it is
- 20.40

6. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
- 20.43 hahahaha CLOSE!!

7. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
- the sound of my air conditioner

8. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
- an hour ago. i was searching for some fresh air

9. Did you dream last night?
- yeah

10. Do you remember your dreams?
- YES.

11. When did you last laugh?
- half a minute ago

12. Do you remember why / at what?
- yess i remember why. it's because of dery's face on his youtube videos hahaha! at dery.

13. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
- my photos

14. Seen anything weird lately?
- nope

15. What do you think of this quiz?
- interesting maybe

16. What is the last film you saw?
- shrek 4 (shrek forever after)

17. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?
- NEW YORK

18. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
- a vw beetle

19. Tell me something about you that most people don't know.
- clumsy

20. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics,
what would you do?
- i would give peace a chance. ;) the world definitely needs more peace & end those wars.

21. Do you like to dance?
- yes of course ;)

22. Would you ever consider living abroad?
- yessssss hahaha

23. Does your name make any interesting anagrams?
- emm maybe i don't know haha

24. Who made the last incoming call on your phone?
- my mom

25. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
- akhiri saja, a song haha

26. Last time you swam in a pool?
- last week..... yeah.

27. Type of music you like most?
- urban music

28. Type of music you dislike most?
- dangdut

29. Are you listening to music right now?
- yes

30. What color is your bedroom carpet?
- pink

31. If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or
mess, what would you do?
- i would gladly change the type of my home from classy into minimalist.

32. What was the last thing you bought?
- magazine

33. Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?
- yesss

34. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
- bungee jumping!

35. Do you have a garden?
- yes.

36. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
- yes of course

37. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
- BREAKFAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's like im hungry all the time rrr haha

38. If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be?
- ANDREW GARFIELDDDD

39. Who sent the last text message you received?
- vera

40. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
- zara

41. What time is bed time?
- 22.00 or 23.00 or idk haha

42. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
- nope

43. How many tattoos do you have?
- i don't have one

44. If you don't have any, have you ever thought of getting one?
- yes hahaha XP

45. What did you do for your last birthday?
- i did nothing. :( but for good, i threw a little party at my crib haha

46. Do you carry a donor card?
- what is that?

47. Who was the last person you ate dinner with?
- my mom

48. Is the glass half empty or half full?
- half full

49. What's the farthest-away place you've been?
- vatican

50. When's the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
- emm i don't eat my homegrown tomatoes. my mom does.

51. Have you ever won a trophy?
- yeah

52. Are you a good cook?
- still in progress :p

53. Do you know how to pump your own gas?
- nooooo.

54. If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it
be?
- rds

55. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
- yes of course haha

56. Do you touch-type?
*skip*

57. What's under your bed?
- emm i don't know; a lot of things?

58. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- yes

59. Think fast, what do you like right now?
- rds

60. Where were you on Valentine's day?
- school.

61. What time do you get up?
- 07.00 or 06.30

62. What was the name of your first pet?
- bonchu

63. Who is the second to last person to call you?
- my stalker

64. Is there anything going on this weekend?
- no

65. How are you feeling right now?
- happy to the absolute fullest, because of no reason(s)

66. What do you think about the most?
- my education

67. What time do you get up in the morning?
- see number 61

68. If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people?
- 1 second hahahaha

69. Who would you tell first?
- my parents

70. What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema?
- scream 4 :x

71. Do you sing in the shower?
- YEAAAAAH!!

72. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
- see number 40

73. What do you do most when you are bored?
- singing maybe

74. What do you do for a living?
- work

75. Do you love your job?
*skip*

76. What did you want to be when you grew up?
- a dentist ;)

77. If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be?
- dentist

78. Which came first the chicken or the egg?
- the chicken

79. How many keys on your key ring?
- a lot haha

80. Where would you retire to?
- a little village in holland

81. What kind of car do you drive?
- matic

82. What are your best physical features?
- my legs

83. What are your best characteristics?
- warm , humble <3

84. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go?
- greek

85. What kind of books do you like to read?
- fantasy, true-story, self-written

86. Where would you want to retire to?
- see number 80

87. What is your favorite time of the day?
- the afternoon

88. Where did you grow up?
- city full of big buildings

89. How far away from your birthplace do you live now?
- not so far

90. What are you reading now?
- these questions

91. Are you a morning person or a night owl?
- morning person

92. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
- noooo

93. Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows?
- surprisingly YES!

94. Do you have pets?
- yes

95. How many rings before you answer the phone?
- 2/3

96. What is your best childhood memory?
- my first ballet recital

97. What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life?
*skip*

98. Any new and exciting things that you would like to share?
- no

99. What is most important in life?
- family

100. What Inspires You?
- my parents. they inspire me the most bcs i think they could be the best role model for me ;)

new year resolution

yeah it's 18 days to 2011! ayeaaah.

and so, year-after-year i always make some new year resolutions.actually, none of them happened. (i know right)

then, this year i make one again! yes,i regret nothing. B) WOO-HOO!
2011 resolution : K-A-Y-A-N-G

haaah. let's just hope it's not another useless new year resolution, amen.

sound effect!

i was just wondering, how wonderful life would be if it has a sound effect. like the movies you know? exactly.

and then we would have our own soundtrack of our life. life would be amazing.

isn't it cool, when we were running in the gym class and that M.I.A song just randomly played?

when we were sad , gloomy , and that secondhand serenade's songs just popped out of nowhere? i DIDN'T even need an iPod

when we were happy, on the cloud nine , everything was going "just okay", and we heard that "happy" song "Mr Blue Sky" by Lily Allen? *yeah i like lily allen, fyi.

when you were angry or scared and that "Alfred Hitchcock's Scary Theme Song" played? i would wet my pants. pee-ing. yeah. -_-

and other memorable things.

midterms

byebye happiness.
hell-o suramness,

tomorrow
i
will
have
my
MIDTERMS!


aaaaaaaaaaaaaa doomsday!