MERRY CHRISTMAS (mostly)

MERRY CHRISTMAS Y'ALL XOXOXOXOXOOXOOO.

there you go, a very sad-looking selfie of me in my holiday jumper, trying to look happy as always.

soooo! it's christmas eve and what am i doing with my life really. I should be out there in the dining room, helping my mom cause my family's having a fairly fancy christmas open-house for my dad's colleagues (probably) and mostly, my brothers' friends tomorrow but i'm here, in my room, simultaneously blogging. i don't know when it happened but i'm 100% sure that the internet had taken my life. rip to my virgin-ish fresh brain.

You know for the record, i'm typing all of this while listening to wham's last christmas. Last christmas has always been my favorite christmas song since i first knew Ashley Tisdale from high school musical. (ironic, i know) Well, she covered the song circa 2008 i guess and then i acknowledged george michael and his band called Wham!, and since then, i've been listening to the song million times. Speaking of christmas songs, All I Want for Christmas by Mariah Carey is also my favorite christmas song. I just love the euphoria that i imagined in my head whenever this song came on. It's just soo good i can't even... Well played, mariah. :)

Anyway, as you probably know, school's off (finally...), i got my report card yesterday and well, you know what, straight A's are the new black. :D Other than that, i'll be spending the rest of the holiday....in my house. Yep, i won't go anywhere, at least that's what i've been told by my parents, just 2 weeks, at home, with my lovely speed internet connection. To be honest with you, I'm really really unsure about how i should feel and react to this. In one side, i should be happy because i can relax my mind and get a full rest, but in another side, are you for real? Like, i've been working my ass off this semester and can't a girl get her time-off? I was expecting some more dramatic family outing this december and well, there you go reality.

Maybe i should just be happy about whatever decision my parents are making for me this holiday because i'm going to a new school next year, and we're probably saving a lot of money since now so, i really have to understand them. So i guess, the things that i'll do from now on to next week will require a lot of boring tv shows, chocolate milk, topshop jumpers, shitload of sleep (i won't take it for granted, i swear!) and not give an eff about whatever it is that is happening because let me tell you this, it's been a fairly sh*tty month since october, and dramas are here and there and this holiday, i swear, i'll keep my mind off of those and JUST HAVE FUN. 

Lastly, happy christmas eve (and merry christmas) to all of you who celebrate it in the church with Jesus, merry "non-religious" christmas to those who celebrate it with san miguel, coronas, and debauchery getting hammered-drunk, hope the party you're attending is dogs-bollocks and to all who don’t celebrate it, hope you have a good monday slash tuesday. :D

If i don't post anything until new year, i just wanna say, it's been a fairly good year with you lovely readers, the pageviews have been increasing like MAD this year, (although 2012 was kinda annoying per se) but above all of that, i love you all. I wish you all the best, i hope you eat yourselves silly, i hope you get all the presents you wished to get and i hope your day is filled with happiness and loveliness and blessing. Merry christmas & Happy new year.

always yours,

xx
m.

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BONUS : santa i've been great this year, please just let me get this for christmas, this is not too much to ask....... i guess?

rainy days, life, and well, everything. (if its possible)

ELLO PEOPLE!

oh God it's been 2 months since i left this blog and everything's still exactly like when i left it, hasn't changed a bit :"). (Wait, what.)

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So in case you're wondering about where was i after all these times, i've been keeping myself busy with lots and lots of homeworks, tasks, essays (which i'll post later he.) and meh, possibly everything.

(asleep - the smiths)

I mentioned about "living my life" on my previous previous post so, that's the main reason why i left the internet for a while. I've been trying to live my life the way it's supposed to be, trying to get to know the people i've already met but haven't known them personally, (reminiscing the fact that i'm leaving in approximately 5,6 or 7 months), doing school assignments (everyday oh mYGOD)  and i spent most of the time you know, thinking. There's this time when I overthink things way too much until i questioned myself, "do you always think this much?"

...Is it weird? That i often think about things i'm not supposed to think? Well i'm a thinker- i must say, but this is getting stronger everyday. Like i think way too much to the point where my head hurts and the only way to reduce it is to sleep. (Like i can haha.) Or maybe to listen to the sound of the rain. (I downloaded it, oh God, it's true about what they say, you can download everything from the internet these days.)

Speaking of which, it's been raining A LOT since october. It's good though--it's the good kind. The ones that'll make you feel warm even though it's cold outside. The ones that'll make you feel like you're a part of the universe-- like you're really there-- like you really do belong "here". The ones that'll make couples crumble to each other and us singles will listen to Ed Sheeran for the rest of the day. The ones where you just want to go outside and dance and just forget about everything for a while.

(That's funny though; "Forget about everything for a while". The truth is, I'm desperate to even breath right now. I just need to get away from everything (and by everything i mean people. or school.) for at least a day, a day off to watch old tvs.)

As the days go by, it's becoming a routine now. Those damned tasks, assignments, deadlines, and everything i can't write here. You know there's not a day without a ton of sighs and whines. I'm just tired, maybe even bored. It's becoming too frequent; the thinking too much, the ed sheeran replays, and well everything--possibly.

But if it's true what they say about this, i hope i can make it. I hope i won't be "that kid again". I hope i won't be just the girl around the corner. I hope all the ed sheeran replays, all the walk home by the rain, all the crumbles and all the time i sacrificed is worth it. Amen.

October // Octubre

Bad Kids - Black Lips

Martell - The Cribs

XXXO - M.I.A

Reptilia - The Strokes

Cuddle Fuddle - Passion Pit

Counting Days - Wild Nothing

Homesick - Kings Of Convenience

Feels Like We Only Go Backwards - Tame Impala

Case of You - James Blake

After The Storm - Mumford & Sons